3 weeks ago, the wedding that I had only spent a mere few weeks planning, was cancelled. Or postponed - who knows yet.
I cancelled it. Pulled the pin. I had to.
Finally an admission to his gambling addiction.
Finally an end to my self doubt.
The wedding that was finally happening, wasn't.
Time will tell if he gets his shit together.
Time will tell if I can ever trust him again.
Time will tell if there will ever be a wedding.
So what the eff will I do on Friday instead of get married?
So what the eff will I do on Friday instead of get married?
I think the problem is that there is NOTHING that can really fill that gosh-darn hole, my love. It's like the 'bear hunt' song. There is no going over it, no going under it... you'll just have to go through it. With your friends and fam in tow. Because you are loved, my friend. And you are most definitely not alone. xx
ReplyDeleteHey Kate,
ReplyDeleteI hope this week isn't too hard on you, instead of the should have been's you have the bright shiny future ahead!
I'm sure you planned the perfect wedding day but it wouldn't have meant a perfect marriage amd that is so much more important.
My ex just went and blew all his wages this month and has now been kicked out of his parents place and is facing the reality of not having a home. Not fun at all. He had to crash on my son's single bed the last few nights ... boo!
Thinking of you xx
Hey Kair
DeleteThanks for your perfect words! I'm dreading Friday, and worst of all it's meant to be 28 degrees and sunshine here. If it were pissing with rain, I'd be much happier :)
Wow, I can't believe your ex blew his wages. What will it take for him to change his ways, homelessness? I hope you're doing ok my friend xo
How did you go?
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